Well this book is about how 40 years old man having a wife and two kids fell in love with 20 years old girl. His life wasn't a success and having fallen in love with the young artist his life seemed to become bright and full. He intended to leave his wife and kids, but the circumstances didn't let him to leave his family. So all those 300 pages were about how the circumstances of our life keep us from making our dreams come true and that we all are the prisoners.
Actually, I "hated" reading this book because it was about treatery, but I had to finish reading it as the teacher at my Uni recommended to read it. So now I'm trying to make a conclution what was all about that I spent time reading that book.
Looking from one side the man wasn't right to leave the family, but the author was trying to say that he wasn't happy with his wife, but all people have the right to be happy. I asked myself what it is "to be happy". He said that he didn't love his wife. I asked what love was.
There are so many husbands and wives leave their spouses in order to find the happiness. I don't judge anyone but my heart feels sad when I hear that such things happen in the life.
Yes, the character had the right for happiness. He had the right to make his wife happy. What did he do to make her happy? Nothing. HE DID NOTHING. How could he demand for happiness complaining of circumstances? If he went to that young girl, yeah, he would feel emotions of pleasure thinking that that was true love that he had been looking for the whole life. But in the course of time the emotions would cease, so what that meant, that it was the time to go to find another source of emotions?
Once some man said to me that LOVE WAS A CHIOCE. First I thought that he was so strange to say such a thing about LOVE. But later I understood what those words meant.
God is Love. So if God lives in my heart that means that I have love already, do I need to pray God saying:"Oh, God, please send me love." I guess not. So this is what "love is a choice " about. The choice is about whom to give THE love that is already inside of my heart. And if we made this choice already there is no way back. I can only imagine what would happen if Jesus started to move backwards, where I would be if it wasn't HIS LOVE. He gave His love to me when I hated him making sin. He did it already when I still was the sinner. He had ALL rights to be happy, but he choose to suffer to make me happy. This is what LOVE is about. I am so sure He didn't feel pleasure hanging on the cross, but so much LOVE was there.
And it is THE TRUE LOVE what people talk about so much, but after all they have no idea what it is.
Well, I don't think that LOVE is just pain. After Jesus resurrection He was taken to Heaven to His Father. I am sure that He is happy now, His love isn't over, His love endures forever and it's really thrilling to get to know His true love to me, He is happy because through His love He made me happy.
Well, that is what Love means to me......................